February 9, 2014
Just recently, I started reading my horoscope everyday.
For random advice, tips and also as a guide for my everyday.
Also, my horoscope has been helping me rebuild myself.
Every time I read my them, they are surprisingly aligned with what my dilemma is lately.
It feels like the horoscope was made for me personally!
This is my horoscope today c/o an app from the play store.
You have never been one to push against what seems like fate. If you make an attempt at something you want and it doesn’t seem to want to work out, you usually feel it is best to retreat. That’s not to say that you aren’t ambitious, because you are. But you just don’t get the benefit of pushing and pushing against what seems like a brick wall. But right now, Capricorn, there is an opportunity that looks – for all intents and purposes – like a brick wall. But that wall may have weaknesses you will only discover if you keep pushing.
My attitude has been like this for God knows how long.
Retreating because of something not working out and feeling that it happened because it really is not meant for me?
THIS IS SO ME.
Why did I need to read it from my horoscope just to realize it?
Yes, I am ambitious.
Actually that is an understatement.
I have a lot of dreams I want to achieve in life but the thing is..
I am too scared to chase my dreams.
*insert self-confidence level here*
It is no secret that Emirates Airlines is my dream airline to work with. (not for)
From my personal research, I have read that they only have one agency here in the Philippines who recruits their employees.
The dilemma is..
They haven’t really conducted an open day recruitment for the said airline.
Still hoping that they recruit by the time I graduate, I will still strive for being my best soon-to-be-a-cabin-crew-self.
Chances are, if they really don’t recruit here by the time I graduate and I have saved enough money for an extra travel, I might attend an open day recruitment at one of the nearby South East Asian country.
I don’t think there is anything that I can’t do for my dream airline.
What do you think? 🙂
February 8, 2014
It speaks a lot about people’s self-confidence if you ask me.
Why can’t just they do it and while at it, have faith in themselves?
Is it because they are playing safe?
Is it because they are afraid of failing?
Fret not if you answered yes to one or both questions.
Every one has been through this phase.
That is human nature.
What we can do about it is start having faith in oneself.
For others to fully believe in our capabilities, it is important that we know what we are capable of.
Once we know, we can then improve more on it and highlight it when the right opportunity comes our way.
I, too, am guilty of selling myself short to other people.
Apart from being afraid to be seen as too proud of myself, I also don’t have 100% confidence in what I can bring to the table.
I have yet to rebuild my self-confidence but I know that I am getting there.
I am very determined now to step up my game and just show everyone that I can do what I aspire and dream to do – without appearing as someone who is full of oneself.
This is so because of the recent realization of my dream — to be a cabin crew for Emirates Airlines someday.
Dream today; Make it happen tomorrow.
I owe you an explanation for this.
I’ll give a brief background on as to why I said in my previous post that I was depressed.
So yesterday, January 27, I received an e-mail about the student exchange program I applied for.
And yes, the result was not what I wanted.
I can blame no one but myself.
A gazillion reasons came into my head on as to why and how incapable I am.
Even though I dislike having negative thoughts, it just rushed right into my mind.
Maybe I expected a bit too much?
Last time I applied for it, I was wait-listed.
After weeks, the person in charge for the exchange program personally called me to ask if I was still interested and that he wanted to nominate me for the exchange program.
For the whole university, he was only allowed to nominate three.
And I was one of them.
Well, that was the main reason on as to why I really expected a lot.
I know that it was such a great opportunity and the mere fact that I was nominated for it is a big thing but I just can’t help but pity myself for a while.
But luckily, my depression was nothing serious.
It took a toll that night.
I had a good and silent cry.
Told no one yet but my best friend.
Well, until now, I haven’t told anyone yet.
I want to “move on” first before I tell anyone.
If someone asks though, I’m still going to tell the truth.
I think it will take a little time to repair my self-confidence.
Lesson: Don’t expect too much!! HAHA.
It is never wrong to expect but keep in mind that not what you want, you can always get.
Right, right? 🙂