I owe you an explanation for this.
I’ll give a brief background on as to why I said in my previous post that I was depressed.
So yesterday, January 27, I received an e-mail about the student exchange program I applied for.
And yes, the result was not what I wanted.
I can blame no one but myself.
A gazillion reasons came into my head on as to why and how incapable I am.
Even though I dislike having negative thoughts, it just rushed right into my mind.
Maybe I expected a bit too much?
Last time I applied for it, I was wait-listed.
After weeks, the person in charge for the exchange program personally called me to ask if I was still interested and that he wanted to nominate me for the exchange program.
For the whole university, he was only allowed to nominate three.
And I was one of them.
Well, that was the main reason on as to why I really expected a lot.
I know that it was such a great opportunity and the mere fact that I was nominated for it is a big thing but I just can’t help but pity myself for a while.
But luckily, my depression was nothing serious.
It took a toll that night.
I had a good and silent cry.
Told no one yet but my best friend.
Well, until now, I haven’t told anyone yet.
I want to “move on” first before I tell anyone.
If someone asks though, I’m still going to tell the truth.
I think it will take a little time to repair my self-confidence.
Lesson: Don’t expect too much!! HAHA.
It is never wrong to expect but keep in mind that not what you want, you can always get.
Right, right? 🙂
Let me be like this for tonight cause tomorrow, I’m bound to be stronger. (C) wanderrwithmee
I really feel down right now.
I feel like Rachel Zane (Suits character).
She feels that she is not capable of reaching or doing what she likes.
I’ll explain tomorrow.