February 1, 2014
I still haven’t 100% decided if I would shift courses or not.
I’m really torn.
But since I believe that one should always hope for the best but expect the worst, I was looking for other reasons to not push through with shifting courses.
The funny thing is that instead of coming up with more cons, I still listed more pros than cons!
Like for every con I can think of, I am able to think of two pros!
Is it a sign?
Yes, yes? 🙂
I even tried tossing a coin yesterday cause I am really confused.
For the next few days, I really plan to think about it more.
I’m actually giving myself until this week to decide.
Why am I rushing myself?
Because if I do shift, I have to fix my requirements and study for an entrance exam.
Yes, another exam.
Before I went into my first year of college, I actually took an entrance exam for the school I might transfer to.
I was actually considering it to be my school.
Though the course I applied for that time is different from what I want to shift to now.
That is about it for now.
I am a third year college student. Turning twenTEEN January of next year. And I am confused. An early mid-life crisis perhaps?
All children are asked what one wants to be when they grow up. We had numerous – and some really hard to reach – jobs that we want like being an astronaut. As for me, I can only recall answering two: to be a dentist and to be a model.
It is not an alien idea that what we answered back then may not be the case when asked 10-15 years later or maybe even 20.
What has changed?
The fact that we have been exposed to more things and occupations may be the reason. As one grows up, we begin to know ourselves better. We start discovering “who we really are” and what are we “meant to do or be”.
Realizing it as early as possible is great but realizing it before it’s too late is even better.
When realized early, one can hone his/her skills already. Passion builds up from there. It seems as if your life has a direction and you’ll never feel astray again.
But why is realizing it before it’s too late still better?
Because you still realized it even though it took time. The mere fact that you realized it makes it good. With everything that you went through to find out what you really want that will make you happy, that makes it better. There is this saying that goes something like,
Because you earned it the hard way, you value it more.
I realized it already. What now?
Now, it is up to you to make that happen.
Always go with your passions. Never ask yourself if it’s realistic or not. —Deepak Chopra
Yes, it is easier being said than done because of course every one has this ideal occupation and ideal life inside our heads.
Even though this is the case, always go with your passion. Life may be harder (or easier) this way but you can never enjoy more without passion in what you do. You’ll always feel like you’re obliged to conform to things that you really don’t enjoy doing. That makes one feel as is life becoming harder and harder.
And as for asking if that dream is realistic, be honest to yourself. Ask if it is REALLY REALLY REALLY far-fetched. Like only 1 out of 1 billion people can achieve that, then maybe you should strategize well before attempting to reach that dream.
But if what you want isn’t far-fetched, get up and do something! Do something to get closer to it! Small things really count. Also, it will help to do some law of attraction. I personally believe that the strongest shield that humans have is their mind. One can never go wrong if you believe that you can achieve something.
Nothing is impossible. Never give up.
Now, you may ask, why am I confused?
Because I tend to mix up my passion with my dreams with my emotions.
I must admit that there is an inner rebel in me. I don’t want people dictating me or getting credit for something that was really decided or done by me.
For example, the course I’m going to take for college. Yes, a lot of people gave me suggestions and I did try to consider them but what stood out most was what if I took this course suggested by personA but I didn’t like it, I would want to blame any one – maybe not directly but in my head silently – for the time wasted because I followed his/her suggestion. Or perhaps a course suggested by personB that I loved and excelled in but he/she tells every one or even just me that he/she is the reason that I excelled. Yes, they can credit themselves and I’ll thank them but somehow, I think, I’ll really feel indebted towards that person forever. And I don’t want that either.
Right now, I feel as if that rebel in me took over me for 4 years – which is bad by the way.
Frankly speaking, I am taking the next term off in school to learn everything in my dad’s business. I want to give it a shot not because my dad has been constantly advising me since high school to take a course related to it and have a license for it someday but because I am doing this for myself.
I am doing this to test myself if I actually enjoy doing it and if I’ll miss what my course asks me to do or even if something in me will be triggered if I do – may it be a new passion or a new dream job. I want to expand my horizon and my knowledge about life outside of school.
This new journey of mine is effective next term which is around the first week of January till March then summer break till May (around 5 months).
I shall write my weekly – or even daily (I hope) – musings here in my blog to keep a record of my supposed progress and at the same time help others like me who are confused out there.
Before I forget to mention them.. Here are my (as of the moment)
Dreams – to be a travel blogger, to have a show related to travel/eating out/cultures, to travel, travel and travel
Interests – travel, cultures, gadgets, blogging, different cuisines, interior designing, architecture, etc
and yes, I am more of an art inclined person. But you know what is so ironic? I think I am a frustrated artist. HAHA! I do floor plans pretty well though ( I think) because I am a bit OC.
How about you? What are your passions and dreams?
Have a nice day!