When do I usually write? I honestly write most of the time. It is just that when I experience extreme emotions, I write it on a piece of paper rather than type it. Think of it as saving myself from embarrassment and saving you from reading such things.
And maybe now you’re wondering what has happened to me these past months and why am I actually writing right now..
All I can say is that A LOT has happened. A LOT HAS CHANGED. From my college life to my social life to my bucket list, my travel experiences, my (love) life?? and even my haircut!!
These past months have been a roller coaster ride for me. I have experienced the most extreme emotions I have ever had EVER in my life. (I know, that’s redundant but I have to prove my point here!) These are not necessarily negative things but neither is everything positive.
It has been exactly 10 months since my last personal blog and though I cannot share with you everything that has happened because well.. I can’t remember everything or maybe I don’t want to remember everything? I’ll try and give you a jist of everything.
My views, values and morals have been challenged. My character was really tested because of the opportunities and situations that came my way. I am no superwoman but I believe that though that is the case, we still have the power to choose. It is important to never lose sight of yourself and the self that you want to be. At the end of the day, I think it will always boil down to “Did you do what you wanted to do but is within the “path” you want yourself to take? And while at it, did you not hurt any one with or without their knowledge?”. That’s a thought to ponder on.
Experience is the best teacher they say. But I believe too that prevention is better than cure. One need not experience everything for them to learn. It is best to learn from other’s mistakes to save yourself from the consequences.
I, too, have questioned myself a lot. I think this has got to be my biggest challenge. Admittedly, I still haven’t gotten over this hurdle until this point. I have been so reliant on how others think of me and it has made me over-think more than usual or more than what is “acceptable”. Because of over-thinking, my moods are sometimes unpredictable and there are times when I have tantrums and start petty fights with some people who I don’t think gives me enough attention. I become sarcastic, give them the silent treatment or just simply act cold to them. And well.. that is unfair for them. They don’t deserve that and I shouldn’t demand for anything since nothing is really official. Sometimes I just feel that I’m being put on reserve but there are no perks to being this kind of reserve.
Expectations lead to disappointments but there are times where I really can’t help but expect or at least hope for it. And when it doesn’t happen, of course, it affects me. I try not to get affected a lot and so far, it has worked a little for me. I know I have to work more on this.
Don’t get me wrong.. I know I can control it but before, when I do try to distance my self a bit, I actually end up totally pushing people away and I am tired of pushing people away. I am not used to controlled distances. I don’t pretend. I am my usual self when I’m with other people and I want them to be like that too. I dislike barriers.
When I want you in my life, I want you close. And if I start to believe that we have to have some distance and that this friendship or any other type of relationship needs that, I almost always end up too guarded to even want you close. I am a clingy person and a person of extremes. I don’t know if that is bad but.. I think I should learn to adjust. Or maybe distance myself if I feel like they don’t want me in their life? It’s hard to find out but I think I can act based on how they treat me and how they make me feel when with them or not.
Anyway I think this post is becoming too emotional
I have been going out a lot compared to before. I am used to going home straight after my classes just because I want to skip the traffic when going home at a later time. Now, I often go to school earlier to have lunch with friends. Or stay after class for dinner. Or even call them when I suddenly have breaks between classes. I have also been on a road trip Manila-Laguna-Tagaytay-Manila just because we wanted too. Also, because of one of my classes, I have been to Bohol with my classmates and it is just a different type of bonding for us. We learned so much about one another and ourselves too. It was unforgettable.
After 10 years of having long hair, I’ve decided to cut it short (not super short but 7-8 inches have been removed). I now sport a bob. Why? Well.. they say that women cut their hair when they’ve experienced something extreme that is out of the usual – and usually in a negative way and yea.. maybe that happened to me too? It is still fresh for me and there are times (often) that I still remember what happened but all I can say is that it worked somehow. I don’t know how to explain it but it really worked.
All of that plus more happened in a span of 10 months. I cannot describe how much these experiences have changed my outlook on life. But though I am far from perfect and from my ideal self, I am ready to continue changing for the better. Baby steps maybe but these are still steps.
Faith. Patience. Focus.
Lastly, I have made the OC organizer in me work too. I have been monitoring my finances again, trying to find opportunities to invest on, planning my future travels, updating my goals and planning on how to achieve them. I’m gonna let this stage of my life be about strengthening my character.
P.S I have my own car already too! just 8 days ago 🙂 yay to more adventures and hole-in-the-wall places 🙂
I woke up by the beach.
It was an experience I will never forget!
You can read the whole story of how that happened here.
Though I slept past 4 in the morning, I woke up at around 6 in the morning.
Yes, my sleep was that short but it honestly didn’t feel like it!
It felt as if I had slept for 8 hours.
As soon as I opened my eyes, I saw the clouds.
I’m not sure if I have written it here before but I really love the clouds.
I love taking pictures of it during airplane rides which is why I always want to seat next to the window.
That is also the reason why I don’t take a nap right away or I don’t take a nap at all especially during short flights.
I grab the opportunity to admire them while in the airplane.
The morning breeze was perfect.
Everything was perfect when I opened my eyes.
The nephews of my brother in law were playing while swimming.
I was impressed because I know it was impossible for the sea water not to be ice cold at that time.
And because they were guys, they were topless.
Imagine how cold they’ll feel!
I chatted with my eldest sister who was also awake at that time.
After an hour or so, I decided to get some more sleep.
My sleep only lasted for less than an hour.
But then again, it didn’t feel like it.
We headed back to their house to wash up and prepare for the burial hours later.
After washing up, we ate and chilled for a while.
We were at the back when the elders were singing and praying for the deceased.
Then, we headed to the town church and heard mass.
Afterwards, we went to the cemetery and the burial took place.
R.I.P Tatay. Watch over us!
Tatay is similar to father/dad.
We call my brother in law’s dad, Tatay.
It was a last minute plan when my sister and I decided to come with my eldest sister and her family to Batangas.
It was really not just a simple getaway.
The real reason why we went there is because we were going to attend the wake and burial of my eldest sister’s husband’s father.
We call him “Tatay” which also means father/dad.
Yes, we are not blood related but we still call him tatay.
Aside from him being like a father to all, as an individual, he is genuinely kind..not only to the people he knows well but also to random people and the people he just met.
His kindness and intelligence has long been an inspiration to many and because of that, I’m pretty sure that he will never be forgotten.
He has made his mark into people’s hearts.
It was almost around 9 in the evening when my eldest sister’s family fetched us at home.
Our mom had sandwiches and other snacks packed for our 3-hour trip to Lobo, Batangas.
During the whole trip, everyone got their little dose of sleep.
I kept talking to my brother in law who is driving because I know he’s tired and really lacked sleep these past few days.
He actually said that he only had 3 hours of sleep in 2 days!
As we arrived at the wake, I realized that it was a familiar place.
Then it hit me.
It was beside their house which I have visited before.
I’m not sure if it was here already when I last visited this place around 5 years ago.
It was a small chapel.
They had it built inside their very spacious lot which houses a lot of homes – homes of their relatives.
Stories were exchanged and while we were there.
Then we decided to play cards.
It has been a habit and somewhat like a tradition here in the Philippines that when there is a wake, there are really groups of people who play cards or Mahjong.
They don’t necessarily gamble but usually, the elders do.
In Tatay’s wake, it was a bit different.
Though the elders were playing Mahjong, I didn’t really see if there was money involved.
On the other table were a little younger set compared to the elders who were playing cards.
Beside them were benches who were sat on by teens and some of their parents.
I’m not sure what they were playing but their punishment was to have something written on their face by the use of coal!
They were really having fun while playing.
I don’t know what is in the wakes I go to but usually, when I go to a distant relative or a relative’s wake, the people there are usually not the silent types.
Yes, they mourn but they won’t let it stop them from being happy.
We have this way of thinking that the deceased person would want his/her burial to be happy and not see his/her loved ones sad.
My table on the other hand is composed of both my sisters and my sister’s boyfriend.
At first, we were really just playing with no bets.
That was before we thought of a great plan.
We got the snacks that we brought for the trip and got a few and divided it equally among us.
You got that right!
We used food as our bets.
To cut the chase, I ended up with the most food.
But I didn’t eat everything since I was so full.
At around 4 AM (yes, we didn’t sleep till that time), we decided to walk to the beach since we planned to sleep there.
The walk lasted for around 7 minutes because it was dark so we slowly walked.
When we reached the beach, it was cold but warm at the same time.
I don’t know how to explain it but the wind felt nice.
We brought our own sheets and spread it out above the sand.
The nephews of my brother in law got some wood and made a bonfire.
It was a fun experience!!
P.S Sleeping by the beach is on my bucket list… and now, I can tick it off :>
Also, having a bonfire is on my list..another one I can tick of!
You can see my not-so-finished bucket list here.
That is it for now.
First of all I want to greet everyone a happy happy new year!!!
The past year (2013) was a wild ride.
A lot has happened – some under control, some without.
Though no one’s year is expected to be perfect, I have a lot of things to be thankful for the past year.
Let me rewind back to my 2013 and mention just a few…
- March 10 of 2013 was when I made this blog! I have always wanted to have my own blog and write about my interests and other random stuff.
- Finished Korean 1 at University of the Philippines, Diliman
- Saw Lee Min Ho again this year because of his My Everything concert!!
- Ticked something off my bucket list: Wakeboarding.
- I joined a group which unfortunately is not active anymore but the few real friends I made there are still my friends now.
- I discovered a lot about other people and about myself.
- I never stopped learning.
- Boracay Getaway for 4 days & 3 nights!
- BORACAY PUBCRAWL!!! (Which I plan to repeat!!)
- A chance to go to a country I’ve always been interested in. Still wishing it pushes through!!
The list goes on and on and on.
Now, fast forward to the present.. I have a lot of things in mind that I look forward to but since I don’t like to jinx it, I’ll mention it as I achieve it throughout this year.
What I’ll mention though are my New Years Resolutions.
I haven’t really completed my list yet but these are a few of them..
- Travel internationally (South East Asian country)
- EXERCISE (FOR REAL) at least 4 hours a week.
- When drinking, not more than 5 bottles of beer / ~10 shots –just being realistic
- No to binge eating
- At least one day of “me” day every other month
- Will fix my sleep cycle so I can eat breakfast
- Monitor and manage finances well
Apart from those things mentioned above which I want to happen to my life.. there is one thing that I really am wishing for right now.
It is hard to explain at this moment but it can change my life big time. All I’m wishing for my birthday this year is that thing. I hope the opportunity is meant for me and that it’ll be granted to me soon.
I swear to never waste it and seize every opportunity that will help me be my best self.
Sorry if this post is a bit mediocre.
I’m really having a writers block but I really wanted to post a blog today.
Since I’m turning twenTEEN in a few days, I plan to write a “What I’ll give my 21 year old self” post and see if I’ll be able to achieve them after a year :>
It has been almost three weeks since my last update.
The past month was really toxic and I’ve been preparing for so many things at the same time which includes the successful My Everything Global Tour of Lee Min Ho here in Manila.
I think to complete every fan girl’s experience, it is a MUST to attend your ultimate bias’ concert if he’s a singer or a fan meet if he or she is not.
But of course, attending both will be better.
Luckily for me, I got to attend both and scored a meet & greet also!
His fan meet was held here in Manila last year dated November 16 of 2012 and two days after, a hand shake meet & greet was held.
His My Everything Global Tour stop in Manila was just last Saturday, July 6, 2013.
Words cannot express how much every Minoz – what the fans of Lee Min Ho are called – enjoyed the concert.
Every penny was worth it!
He was worth all the effort every single person there exerted just to see him.
Until now, I’ve read from their forum that they still couldn’t get over the concert (and him).
He is the most down to earth international star they know and the love he has for his fans can be felt by them personally.
He has this certain charm that one cannot resist.
Personally, I saved up for a VIP seat just to see him for the third time.
No regrets. AT ALL.
Because the atmosphere was so lively, I didn’t have time to focus the camera so for the quality of the photos, forgive me just this once. 😛
(Some pictures are not mine and were grabbed from my fellow Minoz and other news websites)
Lee Min Ho arrived in NAIA1 around 11PM, July 4, 2013.
He ate at Aracama this night at Fort Bonifacio, Taguig –near Bench Tower.
The next day was his concert!
His stay here was really really memorable for all the Minoz.
We know him even better now and we feel his love even more.
Every one is wishing for a part 3 visit here in Manila.
I hope next time when he comes here, even for just vacation, I get to see him and hopefully be in the same island as him.
Palawan? Boracay? Anywhere with him is fine!!
Before heading back to South Korea, he had dinner with his Bench family.
Here are some of the photos they took.
Now he’s back in South Korea.
His life is like a movie!
Look at the way he carries himself.
All the photographs of him are magazine cover ready!!
His July 8 update..
Wow! Just look at how many people lined up early just to see him!
Concert starts at 8PM and even though the sun was shining so bright, they didn’t care.
THE WHOLE PHILIPPINES LOVES HIM.
He is someone who is loved by all not only because of his looks but also because of his personality.
That is it for now.
Till next time!
No, I don’t travel out of the country often.
Since 2011 though, my sister and I pledged (to ourselves, hahaha) that we ought to ride a plane at least once a year.
It can be a local or an international travel.
2011, we went to Boracay.
2012, we went to Palawan.
And this year, we will be going to…….(secret for now)
I hope I can go to space in the future too!!
It is confirmed!
I paid for my flight yesterday and well, of course aside from the fact that I haven’t gotten a return flight because I’m still waiting for a promo fare and I still have to save for my expenses there, I think there’ll be no reason for this trip not to happen.
Hey, don’t judge.
I’m still a student. 🙂
YES!! Very much!
My last international flight if I’m not mistaken was with my grandparents and cousins.
I was in grade school back then when 17 of us went to China.
Of course, my very generous grandparents paid for all of us ^^
Any tips for travelling you want to share?
Feel free to tell them 🙂
– – – wanderrwithmee
It may sound a bit crazy but…
Yes, I booked an unplanned flight just a minute ago!
For where it is, I plan to keep it a secret for now.
(Hint: International travel)
I hope I can save enough for a shopping spree though. Hahaha.
I will also visit my cousin who works there because I haven’t seen him for years!
Wish me luck!!
Yes, that’s me!!
Just last Sunday, April 7, 2013, I went to Rebublic Wakepark in Nuvali to wakeboard with my cousins.
It wasn’t really planned and we only talked about it online for a week.
Good thing that we were all up for the adventure.
We had so much fun – even though I must admit that I still wasn’t successful in completing the course.
We also had dinner together and just bonded for the whole day.
Two days have passed but my body is still sore but it is all worth it!
It is like that good kind of pain in my case.
We will definitely try wakeboarding again!
Try it too ^^
안녕하새요 여러분 / Annyeonghaseyo yeoreobun / Hello everyone!
What is a dream chest?
A dream chest is a container which I plan to put my dream or simple wishes on a paper, roll them and place them in here. I plan to open it afterwards to check what wishes and dreams I had that came true or I have done. 🙂
Dream and simple wishes?
Yes! No matter how big or small it is. From having a ribbon collection to probably having your own home or plane!
A form of inspiration I guess? And a reminder of the kind of things I wanted and wished for. I also personally believe in the Law of Attraction.
How to have one?
Well, just get a container and pieces of paper and a pencil and voila! 🙂 As for me, I got my mini chest from a hardware store. Pretty weird right? Haha. But there are a lot of containers in dollar stores and quaint shops. It need not be expensive!
When do you plan to open them?
As of now, I can’t really tell yet. Back in 2011, I remember I wanted to open it 10 years after. As of now though, some I’ve written are still not possible so I’m planning to extend it to 15 or probably 20 years?? 🙂
Bucket List = Dream Chest?
Yes, somewhat. 🙂 Though I plan to have an online bucket list, I still want to update my dream chest because we have dreams that are too personal and I’m shy to post ’em and.. just because! It is cute too!! :>
I must admit that I haven’t really updated my dream chest because of school and other things –and I somehow just forgot to– but I promised myself to update it as much as I can together with my virtual bucket list!
Though I cannot remember everything I’ve written on the papers in my dream chest, as much as I can, I will include them together with my new dream places, things to have and things to do which will be a bit more detailed in here.
I don’t think putting it here as post is the best option cause I’ll be constantly updating it.
How about on the side? or bottom? or beside my about section? Hmm. I shall think about it.
My Dream Chest so far. No limitations. ♥
After I got home from a very stressful day in school due to my long exam, I jumped on my bed – literally – and opened my tablet.
As I was browsing through my facebook news feed, I came across this article which changed my mood.
Here it is…ze holy article!!
(*click images too see enlarged versions)
Lee Min Ho to transform into singer and start tour in May
Popular actor Lee Min Ho will be releasing his first album and kick off a 10-city tour around Asia.
On March 14, Lee Min Ho’s agency, Starhaus Entertainment, announced, “Lee Min Ho’s special album will be released worldwide. He will kick off his live tour late May in Korea.”
“This album release is not in interest of becoming a singer but for fan service. This is like a respond to national and international fans who have supported him until now. He plans on visiting ten cities in China, Japan, Taiwan, Thailand, Philippines and more for the tour.”
Lee Min Ho shared, “My goal is to only become an outstanding actor so becoming a singer is out of my concerns. This is a present I’ve prepared for my fans and I am coming back with a new project as soon as possible. Thank you for the support and love.”
Well, for your information, I am a big fan of his. SERIOUSLY.
He once came to the Philippines last November 16, 2012 for a brand endorsement.
The event was called Benchsetter Fun Meet which I obviously attended together with 10,000 other fans of his ^^ + my eonnie and chingu!
For my shopping experience that made me get those tickets, visit my old blog post here and please don’t laugh at it 🙂
I honestly have not done this ever before. I don’t exactly know what is in him that made me like him.
Though this event was a definite success, I don’t think that I’ve seen enough of him. I wasn’t at the nearest place too.
But wait! There’s more… :>
My eonnie came with me to the mall at around 5 in the morning to fall in line at the entrance! (November 10, 2012)
This is the inside of the mall. Still closed 🙂
As soon as the doors opened, everyone was LITERALLY running to the store! It felt like there was a zombie apocalypse or something.
And alas! The result:
I must admit that as soon as I got home, I was not sleepy at all! Even though I haven’t slept for more than 24 hours already!!
Everything just wouldn’t sink in right away!! I was days away from officially meeting him +++++ a meet and greet pass which means we will be super close and because it was a handshake event, I’ll be able to hold his hand and be so close to him at the same time!!
My outfit of the day – November 18, 2012 🙂
The lucky girl with me below is Sam Oh! She is the host + translator for Lee Min Ho’s events while here in Manila!! Lucky!!
And of course……
Need I say more? This is one thing off my bucket list!
“It was mind blasting! One level above mind blowing” – Nickhun, 2PM during their What Time Is It? Manila Tour —was nowhere near what I felt during that time!! I was just… ecstatic!
He was perfect. I didn’t imagine that someone can look so good like him! It felt like I was in front of a mannequin!!
And so from that day, I swore that whenever he goes to Manila, I’d definitely have to see him again! And support his projects here as well.
Can you now imagine how fast my heart was beating when I was reading the article about his album city tour!?
I screamed and told my eonnie and my mother about it right away and I said that I will be saving money as soon as I could.
I am so excited for this tour and I hope it will really push through!
As for the album, I will of course buy one. I hope there will be closer interactions between his fans and him.
I hope I get to be one of the lucky ones as well 🙂
That is it for now.
Time to study for my KOREAN 1 finals tomorrow!
Wish me luck!